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berry’s dirty pervert meme

berry is a horrible sl pervert and so she decided to celebrate a year of memes by asking us all dirty questions…


since i am a dirty pervert too, i am playing along…

Sexual Questions: (for RL and/or SL)

What is your sexual orientation or do you not like to label yourself? – i am hetero-flexable. i am mostly attracted to men but i have my pan-sexual moments and have been attracted to ladies, and transgender people as well.

Name a physical attribute that you find attractive or sexy. – oh god i am a sucker for long hair on a guy… the longer the better…

Are you promiscuous, a prude or in between? – i’m honestly a bit of a prude! i prefer to keep sex between two people in a monogamous consensual long term relationship. i do not have one night stands nor do i have sex with people that i’ve only dated for a small amount of time.  in the past on sl i’ve been a bit lax with that in order to please my now ex, but i’m really just not into sharing or giving myself up so easily.

What turns you on? – the list is a mile long…and most of it is not something you’d want to read about lol

Are you dominant or submissive? – i’m a switch! but more submissive than dominant.

Are you into sexual roleplay? – i love it.. i love it in real life, i loved it in sl.dirty-meme-3

Which sexual position is your favorite? – face down, ass up, that’s the way i like to fuck.

Do you have any fetishes? – lots of them… that i won’t list here..

Have you or would you do porn, amateur or professional? – if i was better looking in real life, i would totally be up to taking nekkid pictures of myself but not full on hardcore sex. in sl, there’s always room for possibility…

Do you consider yourself sexy? – in real life nope.. even though my husband says i am, i just don’t see it. i see an awkward gawky dork. in sl hell yes i am…



so there you go berry i hope you’re happy with my TMI!

7 SL facts!


oh i love memes and chances to talk about myself.. haha yes i am vain… that is why this website is dedicated to me! i’m stealing this from berry who stole the idea from tymmerie

fact 1: i have lived with the same crew of people since my early days in SL. when i started dating lucas, he introduced me to his sl sisters, one of his sisters left and sold the island to another sister. the isle of shadows was born and was a sim for bdsm. i lived there with lucas, with our store on the bay of shadows next door. later the isle of shadows was rented out because aiko needed money and we all moved to the bay of shadows, which is where i live now, in a skybox on top of my store.

fact 2: i hate to stand around with people. i always sit on a chair or the floor. standing around in sl makes my feet hurt in rl, especially when we are all wearing impossible high heels!

fact 3: for the first year of my time in SL i NEVER got naked. i was so very modest! i never had sl sex until i started dating lucas and i never let anyone see me without clothes on… i didn’t even like changing with others around!

fact 4: i love to people watch. i am a creepy lurker in clubs and places with lots of people. i love to go to rp sims and just sit and listen to people rp. i love to go to crowded info hubs and just watch people.

fact 5: i dress my avatar based on my mood

fact 6: i used to work for a very popular radio station in SL called phreak radio. one time i was even broadcast live over a stream playing at SXSW. i still have screenshots of lindens telling me my show was great. later i found out that their alts owned the radio station!

fact 7: for a long time second life was my only life, and while i’m not there as much as i used to be, i still love it all these years later, despite all the crappy stuff that happened, the drama with lucas, and the loss of some important people. thanks to second life i am a better person, i have learned much, and i have gained strength to be better in real life.

Create a Character Blog Challenge : Nimil (the real nimil…)


to call nimil complex would be an understatement. she is so many things and most importantly, she is a major part of my life. to me nimil is more than just a character, she was therapy.

when i graduated high school, my father almost died, i was in a terrifying time in my life, not sure where to go from there, instead of immediately enrolling in college, i chose to stay home, to be with my father, as we were told he had months to live. i turned 18, i got the internet, and i spent an enormous amount of time on a forum for a videogame called “wild arms”. it was there that i made my first online friends. i joined in roleplay, as i had been introduced to dungeons and dragons recently by my then boyfriend. nimil is actually my real life name in elf, translated by him, and used by me for my d&d character, and then again in the roleplay on that forum.


at first she was trapped in the body of a nephilim named lenora, who was half elf, half angelic (we were not on earth, so angelic is the closest thing i can think of for an “angel”). lenora was a troubled soul, lost from her home land, taken in by travelers, and fell in love with another nephilim, the only other of their kind left in the world, who had issues of his own. he left her, and joined up with their nemisis, who promised him great power. this demi-god had spent a very long time destroying their entire race, and now he had betrayed his own kind to join forces with him.

lenora was broken hearted, and it was then that she died, comitting suicide in a way. she had heard nimil whisper in her mind. nimil was a secondary soul of sorts, and she made a deal with lenora. nimil became the owner of the body, and lenora went to sleep.


nimil however was not a very nice thing. originally an angelic, part of the all-father’s army, she was not unlike the christian’s lucifer. too prideful and stuck on herself and her kind to acknowledge the existence of other beings, she and many others of her kind began a rebellion against their brothers and sisters. it was she and her twin brother nikolai who led a march to take down the all father himself, and they were all cast out of the stars.

nikolai and nimil were separated, and nimil’s body, too damaged to continue life, even as a non-angelic, died. nimil’s soul was left, lost in limbo, until the fates found a suitable host, the body of lenora.

when lenora went to sleep, and allowed nimil full control, she put her plan into action. she would rule this world and this time no god or demi-god would stop her, because this time she would have one on her side. she seduced the god of death, and talked him into making her one of the fates. he bestowed upon her, power over life and death, ripped her from lenora’s body and restored her to her former flesh. nimil raised lenora as a zombie and sent her out, lost, in search of the nephilim boy who betrayed her. nimil’s cruelty knew no limit, and she wreaked havoc upon the land.

realizing his mistake, blinded as he was by her beauty and sweet words, death punished nimil. banishing her to another dimension, stripping her of all but her wings. her powers purged, she was thrown into modern day earth, smashing though a stained glass window, in a city church. nimil fell again…

her story ended here, as this is where the roleplaying tapered off, and i joined second life where i attempted many times to visually capture my muse.

noobnimil2nimil upgradedAn Attempt


for me nimil was more than a roleplay character. she gave me strength when i felt i had none. through her i was able to bash out all the chaos and bad things that were going on around me. for a while there i ate, breathed, and slept nimil. i wrote up her entire life, and i still have it sitting on my computer, painfully in need of editing. nimil taught me how to write.

nimil is my soul.