4/365 trash
Originally uploaded by N I M I L [is] loved!
or so i’m told.
visited the awesome paper and soap sims owned by the awesome loch newchurch.
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3/365 – another lost day
3/365 – another lost day
Originally uploaded by N I M I L [is] loved!
this is seriously starting to piss me off.. here we are on day 3 of the new year and i still can barely get the internet to crawl.. it actually took me 4 times to get this damn picture to upload. i can’t get anything done like this š
2/365 – the day that wasn’t…
2/365 – the day that wasn’t…
Originally uploaded by N I M I L [is] loved!
bleh.. my internet has not worked all day today and i can’t even log in right now. so the only photo i have of myself from today is this picture from where i was trying on ryker’s skin gift for her exodi group.
1/365 – hello new year…
1/365 – hello new year…
Originally uploaded by N I M I L [is] loved!
its the start of a new year, and i’m going to attempt another one of these sl 365 things…
what did you get for xmas?
since iāve been pretty much gone since all this real life stuff happened, i decided yesterday to get on briefly and check out all the amazing gifts my friends left me for xmas. i had a lot of fun smiling and opening presents. thanks to all of you who sent stuff it really lifted my spirits.
so now i present to you, the haul:
from my wonderful and adorable sl daughter i received this awesome bracelet which tells the world that i am the ābest mommyā this gift actually made me cry. it was so sweet of her.
caesey also gave me a set of bat jewelry, this is the necklace from it. also wearing a candy cane made by rai blaylock, one of my newer plurk friends.
from my friend jasmine, i received this outfit from sn@tchā¦ while i do love sn@tch, this outfit is veryā¦ um… not me lol
a plurk friend, quaintly, dropped this cupcake on me š its really cute and has several poses, and will most likely serve as a throne for my daughter as she is the cupcake princess *nods*
ryker sent me things to stick in my mouth š some really cute cookies, this is just one of them.
fenni got me this adorable mouse for my shoulder. i collect rodents in sl, i have a huge folder full of them, but this one is my fave at the moment.
foe sent me this weird ornament shaped lounge thing.
i tried to make a collage of all this stuff that rai blaylok sent me. youāll probably have to click on that one to get the larger version.
autumn sent out these really awesome friendship bracelets. i love it! it reminds me of when i was a kid.
danni, one of the girls that live on the island lucas and i live on, gave me a box with a white and a black version of this corset piercing! she is so sweet and she even gave presents to the kids š she also gave me a necklace but i havenāt put photos in it yet so i didnāt take a picture lol
these last two gifts are from the wonderful emerald wynn. i am so glad that iāve met her, she is so sweet and i really admire her blogging style. she sent me a monkey.. and some sort of odd cat thing that i can lay on. that monkey has a worried look on his face >_>
so thatās my haul! i know you are saying OMG WHY DIDNāT LUCAS BUY YOU A GIFT THAT BASTARD. but no thatās my fault because heās supposed to take me shopping for one but i canāt think of anything i want lol so i will buckle down and figure out something i want him to buy soon and then dedicated a whole blog to it *nods*
so anyway thank you people in second life who brighten my day. i have no idea how to repay you but thank you all the same.
just so you all know
i figure i should write here because iāve been quite absent for a while, pretty quiet both inworld and out.
in late october my dad fell ill again, his pacemaker fired a bunch of times and he was stuck in the hospital for about 13 days. he came home in november and was significantly weakened from all that time in the hospital. near thanksgiving my mother had a small stroke and was in the hospital for a few days as well. she is mostly ok, her speech is slurred and she has some right side weakness but we are told that it will go away in time. then my father became very ill and a couple weeks ago we put him back in the hospital to take care of some matters. we were told he would not make it. he requested to come home, to be with his family.
yesterday afternoon my father died in his bed, while i slept (i had stayed up all night like an idiot) and my mother rested in her bedroom. he went peacefully and without pain. iām not sure how much i will be in sl. i have been wandering in randomly because its a good place to escape from crap when you donāt have the ability to run away in real life.
long term i know i will still be around, and i thank all of my sl friends who have been here for me during this awful time. its amazing how much kindness you can receive from people who donāt even know you in person. i think it really shows just how connected we all are as human beings. my dad hated second life and he thought i was ruining my life with it, but i think he would be happy to know just how many people are there looking out for me and worrying over me right now.
so anyway, thatās whatās going on with meā¦
omg shadows?!?!
Originally uploaded by N I M I L [is] loved!
*EDIT* the shadows left as soon as i disabled them š now when i attempt to enable them again i get blackscreen.. bleh…
so today i was reenabling boob physics on emerald since i dl’ed the new optimized version of the client when they had an update, and just for the hell of it i clicked the “enable shadow rendering” box just to see if it would work this time.. shadows have been very hit and miss for me.. i got them to work once before but only in one room of the house and after i crashed they would not return. but this time i crossed my fingers and checked the box, hit apply.. got a little stall and then BAM shadows..
there are a few problems, some noticable from the screenshot. the most annoying being the fact that i cannot take a photo of the shadows using sl’s snapshot button.. i can only photograph them by killing my ui and huds and using an external image capture program.
the second problem which is glaringly obvious is the fact that my anti aliasing has gone insane and killed its self.. i have weird jaggy edges and white outlines around things definitely not what it looks like without shadows on.
other problems, my fps is taking a hit but sadly enough 3-5fps used to be my normal fps when i had my old videocard.. so i’m not really dying from it.
oh and my eyeballs are glowing like michael jackson in the thriller video.
still pretty to see light and shadow streaming from the huge windows of my enclosed balcony porch thing…
how did that happen?
i was trying to come up with a good way to introduce the blogging world to the new adventure iāve set out on in second life, but its just for some reason really hard to explain i guess lol.
only in second life can an adoption consist of two people saying āok youāre mine now :pā and it be binding.
last week lucas and i added a couple of new members to our family. it wasnāt planned and iām still not sure if it was a good idea (just kidding kids) but we did it and iām really happy to have them in our life.
so second life, these are my kids. caesey and elijah. one is 6 1/4 and one is 13 going on 21 :p both of them are completely and utterly awesome and i feel very proud to call them my kids.
to some, second life families are weird, but iāve never felt that way. i think here in this world where we can be anything, we should be allowed to be ANYTHING. and if you wanna be a kid well be one! i think its awesome. so far iāve gotten to tour an elementary school (hke), attend my daughterās dj sets (she rocks), run though the kids 50L fridays (they have one too! and its great!) and go to some pretty interesting places.
on top of that i feel peaceful! yes thatās right this has been RELAXING! yeah i know real motherhood would probably be hell on wheels compared to this but this has been wonderful. always someone to hang out with and talk to and everything is so happy and light. iām really a big kid myself so i have always gotten along with children. iāve just always thought i would be a crappy mom. and yeah i dunno if iām being a good mom to them or not (only had them about a week or so.. so not sure)
i do know that i am one of those annoying moms who takes 283497294 photos and makes their kids pose on every friggin poseball in the family section of glitterati.
of course there is the down side which is stupid and annoying.. you canāt take kids to formal ballrooms without the embarrassment of having them kicked out even if they are dressed formally and the club is not an adult establishment (its not like they were having sex there.. they were playing jazz..sheesh.) so weāve had a little trouble finding things to do with the kids that donāt involve standing in the skybox looking for things to do. what they really need is a family friendly website where people can list this stuff because its so buried under the mountains of FREE SEX!!! and business in a box shops that you canāt find anything worth going to.
ok iām done ranting. in closing this family thing is really fun. iām enjoying it a lot š no iām not going to lose my evil side being a mom. my kids are devils.. donāt let the cuteness fool you. the first time i met caesey she was floating around our old shop last year wearing love kills (thatās the heart balloon with a noose), and my son likes to tell people weāre rock starsā¦ so they are just like their mommy and daddy. and its slightly inspired me to make creepy stuff that kids can wear as well as adults.
silence is not a scream
this picture is from november 15, 2006, not long after the copybot was first introduced to second life. i was a noob when this crap started and at that time i was convinced it was the end of the world. this picture is even titled ādeath of a worldā. everyone had started putting up these signs and closing up shops. other places started adding those annoying spamming !quit boxes to their stores. designers threatened to quit making content until LL stopped the copybot threat. to my knowledge LL didnāt do anything about it back then.
thatās why today iām blogging because i am against this silly āprotestā people are doing where they are not uploading, not creating, not blogging, etc for 2 daysā¦ not doing anything is not going to get anything done. you are not shouting, you are being silent.
closing your doors shows the copybotters and texture thieves that you give up. instead i plan to go out shopping today and support creators! and of course, as a content creator myself, it is my right to say that LuNi Designs will not be closing at all during this 2 day boycott, so please do feel free to stop by and support us as well!
if you want to do something about theft, donāt shut your mouth, donāt stop supporting the content creators! instead, do something about it! report thieves! donāt accept ripped off content! make a stand by saying i will not be silent!
hiatus
my father is very sick, and i need to tend to real life. please send all inquiries about LuNi Designs to my partner lucas gerard. i am not sure when i will be back.
with regards,
~nimil