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strange things you do when you’re bored

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i’m building a photo studio high above the LuNi store, and i made it a big box that i can change the light and texture of at will. after finishing with it, i made it full bright, white, and glowing.. and then danced around in it with a windlight setting that made me pitch black.

experimenting with light and the lack ofexperimenting with light and the lack ofexperimenting with light and the lack ofexperimenting with light and the lack of

there’s also a video that goes with this but for some reason i can’t embed it on this blog so just click here to see it.

not much else to say, haven’t been really doing much lately. i do want to say… i’m not dead lol so don’t miss me :p i’m only an im away.

the future is bright… um.. as you can see. heh.

small public service announcement

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i figured i’d write this up incase someone else has this problem since it seems to be affecting only a very small group of users.

recently for a couple of weeks i’ve been having random moments of internet problems. they all seemed to stem from using second life, which was weird, because i’ve been using second life for 3 years now, 2 of those years on a wireless connection to a cable modem in my living room. when ever i would turn on the second life client (and i mean any client, gemini, the stable LL release, etc) my internet speed would flux wildly and i would have insane amounts of lag. it was affecting other computers in my home as well. my father mentioned his net slowing down (he’s connected directly to the router via cat 5 cable), and my laptop, which i keep gtalk running on, was not doing well either. when ever i was on a voice convo with lucas, it was very noticeable that the internet was fluxing, as our conversation’s signal dropped horribly low, and audible voice chat lag could be detected.

so at first i thought it was my router. we tried recycling things, turning things off, changing channels, anything we could think of. after that didn’t fix it, we thought perhaps my laptop was interfering with my pc’s wireless signal, so we turned that off (much to my multi-tasking dismay) and found that it stopped for a little bit, but then got bad again, so that wasn’t the case.

then there was a full night of googling, both by me and by lucas. and finally we found this jira entry titled “voice client chokes some routers”. a couple of people described similar situations to mine and to remedy it, they turned disabled voice chat! so i tried that, and it worked! everything is back to normal. no internet speed flux, no sl lag, no other computers affected!

i have no clue why this happened in the first place, but it seems to be fixed by this. unfortunately it means i can’t hear people on voice anymore but that’s only a minor loss compared to not being able to move around freely.

if you ask the lindens for help, they’ll just tell you that they don’t support wireless, but to be honest i really think they should look into this. like i said before, i’ve used second life with wireless for about 2 years, and it seems odd to me that this just occurred within the last few weeks, which to me says something about the new server update they rolled out this month.

so if you’re having odd problems with connecting and you’re on wireless, try turning off your voice chat! and please do go vote for that jira entry because it really needs to be looked into.

so its Saturday

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and i was trying to come up with something to blog about but i couldn’t so instead i’ll just blog about life.

this whole week i’ve been traveling back and forth to 1 store… aoharu. why you ask? well because they have an amazing 50% off sale going on and i need to quell my fear of sculpted prim clothing and colour.

here’s me, fainting in the middle of aoharu, realizing my wallet is going to be raped of its contents any moment…

i ended up not buying as much as i figured i would.. i couldn’t decide on things, and i still could not bring myself to buy clothes that were in colours other than black! (i have a serious problem here…)

i got a shirt, and a jacket/dress thing.. and a hair, which i’ll probably blog all of on forced midnight. stopped off in the shoe department where i was greeted by this scary poster:

ok i am not saying this isn’t amazing photo work, but.. is.. she.. holding her foot up to show it to us!?!?! like “hay guyz! check out my detachable foot!” that’s the part that kinda freaked me out a bit about the whole thing.

so i rushed home after oggling everything and figured i’d drag lucas back there later and force him to buy sexy mens clothing.

bad idea! ok not totally a bad idea because rawr.. lucas looks hot in the stuff he got but holy fuck! the modding he had to do just to get things to fit his body was insane. we’d both expected to have to mod a little of course, but we also figured that, being that the store was japanese, he’d have a chance to fit into this stuff without much mod work because usually the japanese male clothing we find fits him pretty well. not the case here. it took him over an HOUR to mod a suit to fit his body. and another 30 minutes for the two jackets he bought. one shirt we’re still having problems with the collar on. so ouch.. buyer beware, if you aren’t one with the prims, you are going to have a hell of a time. lucas also took the plunge and purchased the men’s sandals with the prim toes. they came out pretty nice, and i decided today to give over to temptation and buy some myself…

yes i am was prim foot virgin, i did not own any pairs of shoes with prim feet, not even prim toes. i was a bit of a snob for a while, stating that i would never… but yes.. i did… i bought not one but 2 pairs of shoes from this store. a pair of heels and a pair of sandals. i bought the wrong colour sandals (that’s what i get for not letting things rez) but i still kinda like them, and i will probably go pick up the right ones later on tonight. oh and then i talked myself into buying a bright green dress.

the shoes that i got were.. interesting.. adjusting them so i didn’t have the scary leg/foot gap was easy, which was a relief.. i have seen so many horribly modded prim feet that i was worried i would look awful. i can’t get them to match my skin completely because my skin is a little more highlighty than the foot skin but i tried my best to match them up.. please do not fug my feet lol i am still a noob at this D:. the hud that you get for the feet is nice except it does not save the custom colours like it says it does.. and i’ll most likely send a note to the creator about that. also i don’t really like the +/- red blue green options.. i would much rather be able to input rgb values like some other shoes out there. however for a first time prim foot wearer, i like them and they look nice on me.

what else did i do this week?

well i got married… again. something that lucas and i have always done. anytime we find a working chapel in second life, we get married. its very romantic and one of these days i will make a wedding album of the photos of all our chapel escapades. this one was set up kinda like a vegas chapel complete with a little veil and bouquet for the bride.

and a sculptie elvis (who’s curled lip makes his face look kinda deformed). so congrats to us for getting married for the 238947294756234723th time.

there was also general silliness last night when my brother invited me to visit him and his wife while they planned out a new sky box. my sister was also there as well as ava’s best friend, so we had a little mini party. this is us playing onigokko.

and so that’s what i’ve done this week. its been alot of fun, and my wallet hates me.

just adding this photo to remind myself, and everyone else.. this is why i log into second life… <3

me me me meme

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i stole this from ryker who stole this from gabby who stole this from other people :p

1. Who was your first prom date?
an asshole.

2. Do you still talk to your first love?
nope and i never want to.

3. What was your first alcoholic drink?
none! i don’t drink.

4. What was your first job?
i was a cashier for a small hippy store during the summer.

5. What was your first car?
i can’t drive, so never had a car

6. Who was the first person to text you today?
i don’t have a cell phone :p

7. Who is the first person you thought of this morning?
lucas

8. Who was your first grade teacher?
mrs. payne (she lived up to her name)

9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane?
i haven’t ridden on an air plane yet 🙁

10. Who was your first best friend and do you still talk?
her name is brenda and i don’t see much of her now but we speak on myspace sometimes 🙂

11. Where was your first sleep over?
i didn’t get to go to a sleepover until i was 14 years old.

12. Who was the first person you talked/will talk to today?
my dad

13. Whose wedding were you in the first time?
in rl i have never been in a wedding. but in second life the first wedding i was a part of was for a girl named kim who i am no longer friends with.

14. What was the first thing you did this morning/first thing you will do when you log in?
first thing i did this morning was answer lucas’ ims

15. What was the first concert you ever went to?
marilyn manson’s antichrist superstar tour

16. What was your first record/tape?
i know it was something by michael jackson but i can’t remember which album :s

17. First hospitalization?
when i was born, i had to have plastic surgery on my ears. haven’t been hospitalized since.

18. First foreign country you’ve been to?
none yet.

19. First movie you remember seeing?
first movie i can remember would have to be starwars

20. When was your first detention?
4th grade. a boy was throwing gravel at me during playtime and i picked up a big rock and hurled it at his head.

21. Where did you first meet your spouse/partner now?
in second life, in gypsy moon before it was re-done. we met in a crater.

22. Who was your first roommate?
my brother

23. What did you do with your first paycheck?
bought videogames

Love Thursday: My Favourite Linden

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Torley’s Watermelon Revolution (JPG)

Originally uploaded by Torley

i figured i would dedicate this love thursday to the linden who always puts a smile on my face, with his videos, and his photos of second life. torley linden, this love thursday is for you 🙂

ever since i started sl i have always been a torley fan girl. i watch his flickr and his youtube and it always makes me smile. his photos of him and his wife in their sl explorations are always very lighthearted and they make me want to strive to have that kind of relationship myself. i love how well they connect and how they are perfect for each other.

torley has found some really awesome places in sl, and has show them to us all. he has even set up his own sim, which is also awesome and very torley. the sim has a huge collection of resident created stuff, as well as a place to watch his tutorials.

his tutorial videos have taught me quite a bit about the menus and how to use different settings in sl to really improve my experience, and i feel they are a must for anyone getting into sl. i learn better with his tutorials because he is not dull and to the point. he laughs and shows he is human, he makes Anime jokes and funny voices, and that really is a selling point for me.

most lindens are faceless, or if we do see them, they look pretty drab (except for a few of course), but torley has always been a snappy dresser, or a crazy avatar, or a million other things. he seems sometimes, like the only linden who enjoys second life. he’s not all about business, and that makes him great.

i admire him as well, for being able to keep going, even though he has a few setbacks in his life, and i wish i could be a person like that. it kinda gives me hope, and a bit of inspiration, to keep going, even when i feel down. when i am sad, i watch torley’s videos, and i laugh again.

so thanks torley for your inspiration (and helpful tutorials).

searching your name is dangerous to your ego

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yes, i get bored, and i search my name on sites. this time, i searched on plurk, because i left and i thought, hey lets see if anyone misses me. well i didn’t get anything recent, got a couple of cute posts from moggsy and then some interesting shit from back in jan/feb.

first i found an old plurk of smiley’s that mentioned that my and lucas wikia entries had been defaced (thankfully smiley is an admin there, and reverted them.) so i went and looked, and well, i’m pretty sure who defaced the entries, it looks familiar… so fuck you wikia entry editing asshole who will remain nameless because i have no definite proof of who you are.

but then also i found this shit:

HawksRock is grumpy today, but just wanna say that I am getting tired of the Nimil-esquing of my timeline with emo crap, snap out of it people!
posted on February 05, 2009 at 06:58PM

wtf is this shit? seriously.. WTF… why the hell am i being picked on here?? was that seriously necessary? i have problems with depression, i don’t consider that emo, i consider that a fucking mental issue. so yeah, that pissed me off. i know its old but seriously.. fuck you jackass.

both of these things occurred in feb, and now i’m kinda wondering wtf happened in feb to rile up the i hate nimil club.

other creepy things that occur when looking up my name include:

finding a list of sl names with my and my ex-twin’s name right next to each other, even though he and i do not share a rezday, nor are we near each other alphabetically… yet google shows us right next to each other.

a link to my landlady’s webpage, which lists me as a teacher in the bdsm classroom, even though i’ve never taught a class >_> (i was supposed to do one on avatar improvement but lazy kicked in)

well i’m off to see harry potter, so, to end the blog i’ll just toss a photo here that i did earlier today, kind of a late tribute to michael.

tribute (a little late)

what is going on

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i’m not sure if anyone noticed, but i deleted my plurk. i guess its not that big of a deal, i really didn’t have much to say anyway. i deleted it because i got bored of it, i was marking all as read all the time and not even reading most of what was posted on there. i also deleted it to give myself one less place to open my big mouth, because it gets me in trouble. there are too many people on there that piss me off, and seeing them respond to things, i bite my tongue a lot. so this is me getting the hell out of there before i completely ruin myself in the eyes of second life.

but anyway, since no one has im’ed me freaking out about it or anything, i’m guessing its not going to really affect anyone’s life. i am going to try and write in this blog more, but i’m really not doing anything interesting in SL right now. i seem to have the dull disease in all lives.

i am working on making some books of my artwork to sell in the gallery upstairs in our store. i realized alot of people love my stuff but have no where to hang it, so i figured, i have a thinc press that never gets used, why don’t i just make books for people to enjoy! and so that’s what i’m going to do. the first book should have everything you see in the gallery now, plus a few that aren’t in there that i love. more on that after i actually get it all together.

how much do people charge for photoshoots? the answers i get from that question are insanely random. so many different prices and i have no clue where i should set mine. if you’re a photographer, or know one, help me out? give me some ideas… i am stuck on that one minor detail.

and before i close the blog tonight, i want to remind you to visit www.noh8sl.com/ and check out the inworld gallery. i am so proud to be a part of this project.

NOH8 (originally taken by Trace Osterham)

Love Thursday: Lucas Gerard

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i’ve never really done a love thursday before now, but i figure its another way to talk myself into blogging more since i continue to fall out of the routine.

anyway i decided that i would blog about the person i love most in the whole wide world for my first love thursday, my partner and best friend, lucas

my heart

yes i know.. groan she’s going to talk about her boyfriend.. gag… but dammit i am so happy and grateful that he rezzed 3 years ago saturday. so he is my love thursday.

we fight and fuss at each other but in the end, he really truly is my best friend. no one on this earth has ever been so close to me in all my life and i can honestly say that i would be honored to spend the rest of my life with him.

we laugh like two mad freaks cackling at the stupidest shit… with him i feel safe, and protected, and he knows my every secret.

i am truly blessed to have this man in my life.. even if sometimes i am grumpy with him.

i picked lucas for this love thursday because his rezday is saturday, july 4th and i wanted to honor him in some way.

he is my everything.. he is my love everyday, not just thursdays 🙂

My Inspiration?

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zoe connolly started this meme about our avatar’s inspiration, and i figure hey, i could use some prompts for writing, so i’m jumping on board.

(picture stolen from jessyka cause she made it cute :p)

my avatar has always had an odd personal style.. not to mention the fact that she is a shape-shifter, which leaves me with endless possibilities.

my main style is mostly influenced by anime. i have always loved the style of japanese cartoons, the way people look, with their oddly styled, and coloured hair, and their crazy clothing.

my avatar’s look also comes from the harajuku street style of dress seen in japan, as well as many J-Rock musicians. i am heavily influenced by their outlandish style of dress and the fact that even with so many people in their country, they tend to all be so very unique in style.

yes i am a little bit of a japan-nerd…

my body shape is inspired by my rl shape.. from a few years ago. i’m not going to lie, i’m no a thin girl, and i have gained a bit of weight, but the body shape you see on nimil now, is the body i had in high school more or less, only with smaller boobs lol. my face is a merging of my real life self and more of that anime stylization which i find personally aesthetically pleasing.

some of my looks are also inspired by musicians and actors… my more dressy looks tend to lean towards pinup girl style. but i cannot pinpoint a single musician or actor that i am inspired by… i suppose its more the style they wear but not them specifically, if that makes sense? i’m also inspired by fantasy and scifi stories full of elves and hybrid people.

anyway, that’s me sorta.. to the best i can explain anyway.