Meme – nimil's adventures in wonderland

do you even sl?

February 16, 2015 by nimil

its another monday meme from berry and i’m going to also steal how veenya did her blog and post pics for the answers i can post pics for.

Have you ever owned a sim in Second Life? – nope

Have you ever created content in Second Life? – yes, since 2006. my first store was called contagious designs, then when i met lucas we created LuNi Designs, later shortened to just [LuNI], after i broke things off with him i took my creations and started a store called ~SongBird~

i sadly do not have any of my ancient ads from 2006.

Have you ever driven a vehicle in Second Life? –

i own several vehicles in second life, i am a very bad driver…

Have you ever went sky diving in Second Life? –

many times, i don’t have any photos though. it was something lucas got me hooked on and i still do it now. its not as much fun alone however.

Have you ever played a sport in Second Life? – nope

Have you ever went clubbing in Second Life? –

that’s basically what i did for the first year i was in second life…(i’m the one in the green with the tentacles) i still go now and then.

Have you ever fangirled/fanboyed someone in Second Life? – many many times

Have you ever taken a picture of your avatar in water in Second Life? –

when i got a nicer videocard in 2008 i went a bit crazy with the water reflection photos…

Have you ever taken a picture of a sunset in Second Life? –

tons of those, this is one of my faves

Have you ever taken a nude picture of your avatar in Second Life? –

i have a lot of naked photos, this one is my fave even if it is a horror picture.

Have you ever dated in Second Life? –

5 long heartbreaking years.

Have you ever had or attended a wedding in Second Life? –

tons of them.

Have you ever drank, smoked or taken drugs in Second Life? –

my avatar smokes. this is the first pic i ever took of her smoking.

Have you ever engaged in sexual activity in Second Life? –

yep, plenty of that. no i’m not going to show you the photos.

Have you ever been to Bukkake Bliss in Second Life? – of course, many times

Personal Questions – a meme

January 28, 2015May 26, 2014 by nimil

more questions from berry!

When and how did you discover Second Life? – 2005 i found out about it from a friend. i had no credit card so i couldn’t sign up, so i watched him wander around furry sims when i hung out at his house… i finally signed up in 2006 when they opened registration to everyone.

Did you know about virtual worlds before or was this your first experience with them? – yes, i had already experienced them a little before second life came into existance. there was some weird virtual world that a friend of mine in high school loved. i cannot remember the name of it now, just that non-paying members were forced to use a penguin avatar.

Has Second Life met your expectations? – met and exceeded my original expectations.

If you could teleport back to the first ten minutes of your avatar’s slife, what would you tell yourself? – nothing. i love everything that has happened in my second life, even the bad stuff. i have gained much from my time here and i don’t want to change that.

How long did it take you to master avatar flying and driving vehicles inworld? – flying took about a month to figure out, driving vehicles i still suck at all these years later!

Do you have a mystery alt? – i have 2.

Is your SL avatar a reflection of you, or someone you wished you could be? – my avatar is a representation of what i call my “soul” she is all the things i love, both about myself, and others, and story characters. she is my super hero.

Is there an individual you met in SL that inspired you in your RL? How? – there’s a lot of those! many people who encouraged me to be more confident in myself and what i can do, people who pushed me to try harder which made me also try harder in real life.

Do you feel it is easier to create stronger bonds/relationships with people you meet inworld as opposed to the real world? – for me personally its a lot easier to create bonds and relationships in a virtual world. i am not hindered by my inability to drive and i don’t have to find a baby sitter to hang out with people in second life and get to know them. in the real world i have a hard time finding and making friends, and equally i struggle with maintaining friendships because i just cannot go hang out with them.

Did you ever imagine or believe people could fall in love with someone they never met before Second Life? – honestly i personally never thought emotions could be properly expressed over a long distance. i always felt like people just became infatuated with the personality another person displayed. then i met lucas and i did fall in love, and i felt it, it really shocked me. it turned my whole world upside down. ending that relationship was more painful than anything i have ended in the real world as well.

How has your perspective of dating changed (or not) since you started playing second life? – i was open to long distance relationships before second life, now i think they are a horrible thing to put yourself though. kudos to those who can endure it.

How has your perspective of employment changed (or not) since you started playing second life? – its not really.

Name three things in both your lives that overlap each other significantly. – friendship, and social stuff..and i can’t think of a third, not much overlaps anymore…

If you could live your life more immersively in a virtual world, would you? (Kind of like the Matrix) – HELL NO! i want no part of being physically connected to a computer. when tech moves towards that i will probably just go live in a cave.

How do you think behavior changes for people if they’re inworld vs in real world? Why do you think that is? – as with all formats that encourage anonymity, people can be asshats, and they are more likely to voice their shitty opinions because they feel like there is no repercussions.

How has second life consumerism changed your perception of spending habits, the value of money, the need to be “bleeding edge” with fashion? – it hasn’t really, i’ve never been bleeding edge anything, and i’ve always been kinda miserly… none of that has changed.

Do you think virtual worlds like SL drive and redefine human interaction or do they narrow and limit it? – they definitely drive it, and open up new ways to interact with others.

If technology progressed tomorrow to allow you to send emotions to people the way you’d send text or voice messages, would it enrich your SL experience or infringe on it? – it would destroy my experience.. i have enough emotions, i don’t need more…

Name three skills you attribute to having learned or honed in second life alone. – advertisement writing, photoshop, blender

If your grand kids googled your Second Life Avatar’s name, would they be intrigued, disgusted, proud or something else? – i think they would probably look at me a little funny…

berry’s friends list meme

September 15, 2014May 13, 2014 by nimil

oh look! another meme! i need to really go back and do the rest of these. today’s meme is all about my friends list. we were also asked to take a photo with a friend and since i was in IM’s with my good buddy fenni, i dragged her to a creepy hotel and made her pose with me.

ON TO THE QUESTIONS!

What is the number of contacts on your Second Life Friends List? 208

Who is your oldest contact? (check your calling cards) Lindsay Noonan

Who is your newest contact? (check your calling cards) Elysiane Sapphire

Do you know every single person on your list? i know or knew them at some point in my second life. i do not accept random friend requests.

Who on your list do you have the closest relationship with? my sl family, elijah, arianna, casey, lindsay, caile, fenni, mali, and foehn

Who do you wish you knew better? i wish that i could go back and get to know some of the people i met years ago and added. i’ve lost touch with a lot of people.

Who on your list is the funniest/most entertaining? probably fenni (shown here) she is so random!

How did you meet most of the people on your list? various situations. some of them through my years in content creation, some of them from plurk, some from the artist world, some of them i picked up at sex sims.

Do you ever clean out your list? i’ve never done a mass cleaning, i only remove people who give me reason to remove them.

Do you have a crush on someone in your list? maybe.

Is there anyone on your list that you would trust with your password? i have given a temp password to a couple of people for assistance.. like lucie bluebird got it back when i was nearing my son’s due date because he was due right before twisted hunt, and i needed someone to be able to place my box for me lol since she owned the sim i had my shop on, it seemed logical to ask her :p. i change my password after stuff like that though.

berry’s dirty pervert meme

September 15, 2014March 11, 2014 by nimilblackflag

berry is a horrible sl pervert and so she decided to celebrate a year of memes by asking us all dirty questions…

since i am a dirty pervert too, i am playing along…

Sexual Questions: (for RL and/or SL)

What is your sexual orientation or do you not like to label yourself? – i am hetero-flexable. i am mostly attracted to men but i have my pan-sexual moments and have been attracted to ladies, and transgender people as well.

Name a physical attribute that you find attractive or sexy. – oh god i am a sucker for long hair on a guy… the longer the better…

Are you promiscuous, a prude or in between? – i’m honestly a bit of a prude! i prefer to keep sex between two people in a monogamous consensual long term relationship. i do not have one night stands nor do i have sex with people that i’ve only dated for a small amount of time. in the past on sl i’ve been a bit lax with that in order to please my now ex, but i’m really just not into sharing or giving myself up so easily.

What turns you on? – the list is a mile long…and most of it is not something you’d want to read about lol

Are you dominant or submissive? – i’m a switch! but more submissive than dominant.

Are you into sexual roleplay? – i love it.. i love it in real life, i loved it in sl.

Which sexual position is your favorite? – face down, ass up, that’s the way i like to fuck.

Do you have any fetishes? – lots of them… that i won’t list here..

Have you or would you do porn, amateur or professional? – if i was better looking in real life, i would totally be up to taking nekkid pictures of myself but not full on hardcore sex. in sl, there’s always room for possibility…

Do you consider yourself sexy? – in real life nope.. even though my husband says i am, i just don’t see it. i see an awkward gawky dork. in sl hell yes i am…

so there you go berry i hope you’re happy with my TMI!

what gave me hope?

November 28, 2017February 17, 2014 by nimilblackflag

berry’s monday meme this week is a somber one. i’d like to first sit here and take a moment to give her my thoughts and love because she is going through a rough time at the moment <3

for me the lowest point of my life was somewhere around may. my mother died, my father had died a couple of years before, and i was living with my mom in the trailer i grew up in. i had taken care of both of my parents during their final years and now i was alone. the man that i was completely infatuated with, was many states away, and refused to see me in real life. The other day I was looking for stroller info when I recieved a message ony my phone from someone wishing me the best, I was so happy. It was my breaking point, the straw that broke the camel’s back.

people who have been burned by trolls online and on plurk see it as a nesting ground for assholes, but for me, plurk saved my life. when i was at my lowest, and felt like i could take no more. these people who only know me as an avatar and a screen name gathered together, they raised money for my mother’s funeral, they lifted me up out of the darkness, they held my hand as i did what needed to be done.

i am in tears even now because i am still in awe that anyone would bother to do anything like that for me. i have not had a great life and i have never had great self esteem so i have a hard time feeling “worthy” for anything. the fact that these people who are basically strangers to me and my real life, cared enough to do this for me, and to continue to care and hold my hand through scary situations, has helped give me hope for myself, and for the state of the world.

too many bad apples can make one bitter to the fruit. i am pleased to say that i have found some of the sweetest of the bunch.

i wanted to edit and add this song in for berry and for anyone <3

halloween meme

October 29, 2013 by nimilblackflag

i should probably write in this blog more than once or twice a year right?

strawberry has been doing a lot of awesome memes and i am just too lazy to do them all, but i figured i’d blog the halloween meme, as its my favourite holiday.

Meme Instructions: Share a picture of your Halloween Costume in Second Life and/or answer the following questions about Halloween. Don’t forget to share a link to your post in the comments and if you share a picture, feel free to add it to the Blog Memes Flickr Group.

my costume changes every day but this is what i wore to a halloween party last night.

Did you go trick or treating as a child? yes! i trick or treated until i passed the legal limit for my area (which was 15).
What was the best Halloween costume you ever saw or wore yourself? my now husband once wore a costume to a contest where he was a zombie, in a fancy suit covered in dust, when they called his name to be judged, he had placed a hand full of rubber worms in his mouth, and pretended to barf them all over the judges table.
What is your most vivid memory about Halloween? i wanted to be a vampire for halloween but it was really wet and rainy that year. my cape was a trash bag and i had to wear my punky brewster boots because of the wet. the cotton candy pink and blue of the boots really ruined the vampire costume, and i was upset about it most of the night.
What is the scariest movie you have ever seen? i am a huge horror movie nut, so traditional horror movies do not phase me. for me, the scariest movies ever are the matrix movies because i hate robots and that is pretty much my worst nightmare in movie format.
Do you ever get nightmares after watching a scary movie? when i was a child yes, but not really anymore.
Are you superstitious? If so, name at least one superstition of yours. no.
What will you be doing for Halloween this year, if anything, in SL and RL? taking my son trick or treating for the first time ever!

Berry’s Procrastination Meme

March 19, 2013 by nimilblackflag

i am inspired once more by berry to do a meme because i have nothing else to blog and it makes me happy to fill this blog up with something for once.

What is the rez date for your current SL Avatar that you use most often? june 11th 2006.
Where was the first place you made friends as a newb and got to know people in Second Life? the angry ant! a club owned by sarah nerd back in 2006. it was an awesome place for new avvies and i made a lot of friends there.
Where do you spend most of your SL time now? my skybox, my best friend’s house, random sex sims, goth clubs.
Who is your closest friend in Second Life? (only pick one). my sister, but i won’t name which because i have several and all 4 of them are equally close! so hah!
What is the most favorite thing in your inventory? (only pick one) my photo album folder
The last thing you purchased in Second Life? the pink fuel skin i’m wearing in this photo.
What color clothing does your avatar wear most often? black
Do you prefer to walk, run or fly? i like to walk.
What is the craziest thing you’ve ever done in SL? when i was part of grendel’s children, we were next to a large vampire rp sim on mainland. flea made a rat avatar and we all wore them and invaded the rp sim’s sewer system, jumping up though their manholes and flooding their streets with rats.
Who would you like to play YOU, in the movie of your SLife? it would have to be a cartoon movie. no actress in the world compares to nimil blackflag.

me me me meme

July 16, 2009 by nimilblackflag

i stole this from ryker who stole this from gabby who stole this from other people :p

1. Who was your first prom date?
an asshole.

2. Do you still talk to your first love?
nope and i never want to.

3. What was your first alcoholic drink?
none! i don’t drink.

4. What was your first job?
i was a cashier for a small hippy store during the summer.

5. What was your first car?
i can’t drive, so never had a car

6. Who was the first person to text you today?
i don’t have a cell phone :p

7. Who is the first person you thought of this morning?
lucas

8. Who was your first grade teacher?
mrs. payne (she lived up to her name)

9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane?
i haven’t ridden on an air plane yet 🙁

10. Who was your first best friend and do you still talk?
her name is brenda and i don’t see much of her now but we speak on myspace sometimes 🙂

11. Where was your first sleep over?
i didn’t get to go to a sleepover until i was 14 years old.

12. Who was the first person you talked/will talk to today?
my dad

13. Whose wedding were you in the first time?
in rl i have never been in a wedding. but in second life the first wedding i was a part of was for a girl named kim who i am no longer friends with.

14. What was the first thing you did this morning/first thing you will do when you log in?
first thing i did this morning was answer lucas’ ims

15. What was the first concert you ever went to?
marilyn manson’s antichrist superstar tour

16. What was your first record/tape?
i know it was something by michael jackson but i can’t remember which album :s

17. First hospitalization?
when i was born, i had to have plastic surgery on my ears. haven’t been hospitalized since.

18. First foreign country you’ve been to?
none yet.

19. First movie you remember seeing?
first movie i can remember would have to be starwars

20. When was your first detention?
4th grade. a boy was throwing gravel at me during playtime and i picked up a big rock and hurled it at his head.

21. Where did you first meet your spouse/partner now?
in second life, in gypsy moon before it was re-done. we met in a crater.

22. Who was your first roommate?
my brother

23. What did you do with your first paycheck?
bought videogames

My Inspiration?

June 26, 2009 by nimilblackflag

zoe connolly started this meme about our avatar’s inspiration, and i figure hey, i could use some prompts for writing, so i’m jumping on board.

(picture stolen from jessyka cause she made it cute :p)

my avatar has always had an odd personal style.. not to mention the fact that she is a shape-shifter, which leaves me with endless possibilities.

my main style is mostly influenced by anime. i have always loved the style of japanese cartoons, the way people look, with their oddly styled, and coloured hair, and their crazy clothing.

my avatar’s look also comes from the harajuku street style of dress seen in japan, as well as many J-Rock musicians. i am heavily influenced by their outlandish style of dress and the fact that even with so many people in their country, they tend to all be so very unique in style.

yes i am a little bit of a japan-nerd…

my body shape is inspired by my rl shape.. from a few years ago. i’m not going to lie, i’m no a thin girl, and i have gained a bit of weight, but the body shape you see on nimil now, is the body i had in high school more or less, only with smaller boobs lol. my face is a merging of my real life self and more of that anime stylization which i find personally aesthetically pleasing.

some of my looks are also inspired by musicians and actors… my more dressy looks tend to lean towards pinup girl style. but i cannot pinpoint a single musician or actor that i am inspired by… i suppose its more the style they wear but not them specifically, if that makes sense? i’m also inspired by fantasy and scifi stories full of elves and hybrid people.

anyway, that’s me sorta.. to the best i can explain anyway.

ramblings

June 4, 2009 by nimilblackflag

i haven’t written in a while and i’m tired of apologizing for that.. so i’m not gonna. the previously mentioned carrie tribute dress is now available inworld at our store if you are interested in getting it. i’m kinda disappointed in its lack of sales, but instead of being hard on myself i’m just going to say that it was probably just not something the normal crowd would go for, not to mention its my first real attempt at making a dress. but i’m not going to let it stop me. no… i’m going to keep trying and learn, and do better stuff. i know i’ll never be some super fashionista clothing designer, and who are we kidding, i’d never want to be that to begin with. but i do want to make things i am proud of, and even though i am proud of my carrie dress, i can do better.

next week is my 3rd rezday. i have no idea if i am going to party for it, or if i am going to just silently let it slip past. haven’t decided yet.

i totally stopped doing my 365 sl thing and i feel bad now.. its been several days without a photo and i know i need to catch back up and keep going but i just feel very uninspired to do any photos lately…

i do want to get back into photography though and i have been trying to come up with a way to extend my abilities to the public. recently i took some lovely shots of my sl brother and his new wife ava.

they are adorable together <3 but i want to do more of these and perhaps for paying customers :p (no i do not charge family..) as well as maybe do some creepier work for people who are interested in that sort of thing. i know i keep talking about it and never do it but i just can’t seem to figure out what to charge for stuff. that’s mainly what stops me.

oh speaking of photos there’s a butt meme going around the bloggers and plurkers of sl, so lucas and i decided to make ours a double 😀

i dunno if that will show up for everyone, i had to flag it moderate because last time i left a butt photo flagged safe flickr had a hissy fit. we have cute butts, flickr should be glad i put our asses on there at all.

and so my blogging for today ends. i dunno what else to say.